Pam’s Log:
Yesterday, was a very busy day. And I know how busy we can all get.
But busy doesn’t necessarily have to be a busy thing!
It can literally be waking up and before I place my feet on the floor I say to my-self, my best friend, my inner knowing — “Girl, you got this. Go have a great day today!” And then I just want to share that with the world!
At times I forget whilst channeling my inner superhero. That it can get well, really COSMIC!
And by cosmic I mean I feel like a supernova ready to explode and implode!
Minus being a man and being really mad all the time! It’s like the incredible Hulk type of feeling until I can get used to the energies and get well, vibrationally assimilated I guess ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
It’s more like…I had to run around a soccer field 3 times! Kick the ball around, Pam look at the ball, they say! And then do a yoga class plus 15 minutes of WimHof breathing, push ups and my own personal meditation! So you can imagine the type of cosmic unconditional love force I am dealing with here! :D
So what do I do to manage my energies!
I called one of my best friends Nicky to discuss this further.
We were talking about how going live on our New Podcast #IOTC creates a myriad of emotions! https://bit.ly/2C1eY1R ←Watch Trailer here! It’s OFF THE CHAIN!
Anyway, sometimes an inner critic may show up and show his leery head!
And then.
That’s when you just take that squeaky air hammer toy they have at Carnivals and bang it on his head and say:
Bad inner critic, bad bad bad! You have no space here! And he tries not to laugh but moves along anyway.
So what do I do with my Creative cosmic forces and juices?!
I create!
I channel that energy into smily faces, conversations with friends and kind strangers, poetry, essays, an amazing love life! Can’t wait! Exercise, cleaning the house (I know odd, but it works!) YouTube videos! And so on and so forth.
I also Psylocke and pump myself up at the same time prior to shooting. I get my Kundalini cosmic creative forces up!
Think a boxer getting ready for a match before entering the ring!
I either dance, run or skip in one spot while smiling and saying nice things about myself.
#I am beautiful
#I am kind
#I am supported beyond measure
#I am cosmic love
#I am infinite intelligence
A lot of the times, working with HDB (Higher Dimensional Beings) it can feel like …
Here you go Pam, here’s the keys to your new Ferrari. And I’m like, Okay! And I jump into the car and hit the gas pedal down until it creates a hole in the floor! LOL
NOW-NOW PAM!
I have learned through proper meditation, mentorship, really cool supportive friends, self reflection and self care ←big one here folks I can step back and ease it a bit and know my boundaries. I close my eyes and learn to funnel my infinity into creative projects.
In fact, many creatives have a lot of cosmic juices flowing through them so they turn that shit into ART or healthy cosmic relationships!
And how cool is that!
It takes discipline though.
Don’t get me wrong. There are times where I could cry in bed but then my guides pull the comforter from over my face and tickle my chin! LOL
I’m playing with you all here because downtime and space is a good thing, the energy here I’m talking about is coming out of your shell or overthinking and overanalyzing. Which happens sometimes!
Opps! That’s actually a dung beatle but as they say, shit rolls downhill. Like seriously! That’s the first thing I thought when I saw this and how could I NOT use that joke! Anyway, picture a hermit crab coming out of a shell and be done with it.
So where was I…
Oh right! My mind goes a trillion miles per nanosecond at times!
So some things I ask myself when creating new habits are:
How does this thing serve you?
How does this activity or relationship make you a better human being?
If it’s not serving you anymore, why are you still hanging onto it?
It may be time to release it and let go.
And then I go do something beautiful and play outside. Or hug a tree.
This has been my word this week.
BEAUTIFUL.
I AM BEAUTIFUL.
Love is to release what no longer serves so you can make room for that which does! It’s law! As one of my friends said in her poem, love is letting go.
I was almost obsessed as one of my friends/mentors/artist friends Lorraine said, one of the many geniusesesses of the world (I said it like that because I think we all are!) Anyway, geniuses! :)
i) Learn from each other — usually a very small group of like minded supportive positive people — usually divergents because once you tell people the Earth is a sphere and majority think it’s all flat! Well…they label you crazy!
ii) They’re a bit OCD with his/her/their Perfection. But perfection is false! This is a false premise! 😮
And so I break my perfection which doesn’t even exist! (Owe, that one hurts my head a little!) By just going with the flow more! And reminding myself, Pam today is Monday Jan 7th, be here now please! Stamps my forehead with an old library ink pad! But gently.
iii) And three, well….there is no three! Ha! Made you look!
Well, I would say 3 for me is allowing my mind to return to that of a child and see things new again! Oh look dragonfly! Oh look, squirrel named Suzanne, Did she just tell me to shut the fuck up! Fuck you Suzanne! And funny stuff like that! (By the way, Suzanne and I have a beautiful friendship and we go way back!)
Anyway, this is how I carve out the negative and positive space in my mind’s eye.
I did this thing a while ago where I was sitting on the couch and was cutting out a christmas tree shape out of some old cardboard. Yes, this is what I do for fun!
Anyway, when I took out the carved piece. I didn’t know if the tree I cut was the decor? Or if the negative space left behind was the decor? Like the outline cuz they both looked good.
This reminds me of the beginning of what I just wrote. The implosion and explosion of a Supernova!
The Law of Contraction and Expansion.
It’s like a camera lens.
Like the aperature of your eyes!
It contracts and expands when you are ready to receive the information. Expands, open and receptive. Contracts, well you get it.
And much like my ego or many personas of Pam as we are multifaceted beings…I expand and contract her. I play with her and her personas. And she becomes my muse.
Did you just hear that?
I become my own muse.
When or if I get into reaction versus action mode and allow myself the space to feel that emotion I say – well Pam how fascinating! I wonder where that came from!
It’s cool if you have a loving partner in crime and supportive people around you – again your fantastic 5 to help you process and move through this! Or just go hug a tree like I said and don’t overthink it! Trees hug back you know.
Think of your Squad as your superhero team! They basically interlock their arms and hold onto one another so that when you fall, cuz you will. You basically jump back up like on a trampoline and soar up to the skies again!
My bounce back rate is pretty cool! The themes I may explore may be different. But my mindset going in is always interstellar!
I trust the flow and source of where my infinite intelligence comes from.
Sometimes my inner Gordon Ramsey likes to swear a lot. She says it helps her to relax. (I can’t stop laughing at this article! Did you really read this far? Thank you!)
The thing is:
The PAM I AM WITNESSES the many versions of Multidimensional, Multifaceted Pam. Call it ego, persona, whatever the fuck you want!
I learn to stay steady as a ship sailing in the blustery wind at times. But hard core wind makes you a better sailor doesn’t it? Or you drown, you choose! Hopefully the first like me! :)
So, all I know:
The center Pam.
The ever-evolving Pam.
The circle Pam.
The epicentre Pam.
The unfinished masterpiece that is living in this space x time continuum Pam.
The, I didn’t just wake up and learn everything I need to know now Pam! lol
Is always ever evolving in the direction of LOVE. Because — LOVE IS ALL YOU HAVE!
Truth be told though, when my soul is finished playing here at the ripe old age of 333 years young. She will peace out and if she ever decides to incarnate on Earth again, I will never talk to her again! (J/k!)
So it’s a bit of a cosmic play here Folks but I feel it’s playing out nicely. Did you notice the pun? Okay I’ll stop now. NO I WON’T! :P
All I’m saying is I have my moments of peaks and valleys.
And my infinity gives me space to move through those moments as long as I know who or what my carrot is! And I actually like carrots, good for your eyes! But it was me all along moving my carrot! Higher Self knows short cuts, Physical Self knows ego.
At least my line graph is continuously evolving upwards and is not repeating the same archatypical patterns.
It’s like someone sitting at a buffet and they keep complaining about how they hate anchovies … when there’s chocolate pudding right over there Lady and Gents! Ah well. Each to their own I say.
Like my old boss would say, as I gave him white hairs.
What are your lessons learned Pam? We call them milestones and pivot points!
And I would say, I don’t know Greg (fake name) why don’t you tell me. And then I shove my chocolate pudding in his face!
Anyway. Here’s what I have learned.
No one does this thing life thing alone.
I literally have 5 really close friends that really know me well, like all of me. They’re my Squad.
So as I turn my body, my thoughts, my feelings into an expressive art piece on a blank canvas I call: FB, YOUTUBE, INSTAGRAM, TWITTER, and so on and so forth.
I am reminded of these important things:
Return to self alignment.
Be your own best friend.
Be kind to one another.
And go play outside!
PAM I AM
Oh, PS! (Not my name but the other one!)
When I ended my day, my future self left me a present.
Would you like to see what she left me?
Love.
And guess what?
I started seeing it EVERYWHERE!!!
WEEEEEEEEEE!!!
