Recharging Your Battery
How is your inner meter running?
Sometimes I forget that:
A — I am human (which my friends constantly remind me) &
B — That I need to take time to recharge my batteries! & …
C — There is no C! No there is…, hang on…it was just …. oh SLOW DOWN more! That as Mozart once said: the music is in the space between the notes.
These are the times that I go and do fun stuff like:
- Head out into the Forest
- Hug a tree
- Learn a strangers name and one cool fact about them
- When I do something that challenges me, I go do that thing and then reward myself afterwards with a treat
- Talk to Squirrels named Susan! One of my client’s name was Susan! No relation though
- Drink plenty of water
- Watch comedy movies
- Call a good friend (as opposed to a horrible one which I don’t have.)
- Read a good book (same as above.)
- Draw, colour and paint ( I literally have sidewalk chalk that I draw my ideas out on and then take a picture before it rains.)
- Play with kids! WEEEE!
- Meet up with friends
- Go visit the adoption cat at Bosley’s and tell him or her that they are beautiful and that very soon they are going to find a lovely home, and that the measured adoption rate is usually between 1 to 2 weeks, but who’s counting!
- And well you know, that type stuff.
It reminds me of the time John Mackey heads off to the forest for 3 weeks every year with absolutely no comms because he knows that’s his creative juice time is important to him.
On a completely side note, because my mind works like that:
Did You Know That?
I was really touched that he shared his story that his mum was embarrassed of him running, ‘a grocery store chain,’ and still persisting him to pursue another career!
WOW!
The man who runs Whole Foods people!
A B Corp company! Now sold to Amazon of course.
But a company that was consciously aware, upholding the highest of standards of social, environmental and ethical standards. Balancing profit with purpose, creating a global movement for change for the force of the greater good. (Wow that was a mouthful! Takes a deep breath and eats a brownie!)
What people call consciously aware companies! It’s really all a conscious construct but who’s counting ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
I find that fascinating!
Right? Turn your curiosities into fascination! Unless it’s total trash thinking than throw that shit out! Or recycle it into positivity!)
I keep going and doing what makes me happy. Everytime.
I follow my bliss ruthlessly (like Josph Campbell says or Toucan Sam from the Fruit Loops commercial! Same inner wisdom!)
Regardless of what my family or friends thinks I ‘should do,’ letting go of all perceived outcomes and expectations. And just go with the flow more.
To quote Nicky today as she downloaded a mantra for me:
I’m going to follow the impulse of my desire today.
That’s my brown rabbit saying Hiiii!
Also my Dad’s favourite movie — Bambi. We both cried when his mum dies. I still can’t watch it.
It’s like the Simpsons episode when Marge had to eat the Bambi VHS tape before the kids watched it. Or when she skips the chapter when Nemo’s mum dies and Milhouse tells Bart — Nemo had a mum! And he’s like what are you talking about?!
Oh gosh, here we go again.
Did you know that?
Disney bought a house for his mum. And a gas leak occurred and his mum died. That he was haunted with that guilt ever since! Now expressed in his films of his mum’s passing away.
Hmmm…it’s funny how the subconscious mind makes his leery head shown like an eel. (Which my Dad also wanted because he believed in free energy but I digress. Also, when I told my old Boss during an interview what threatens BC Hydro right now? The largest utility company in BC and I replied, Free Energy. He just smiled and I still got the job! Damn I’m good, or good looking. But I digress.)
Now where was I.
Oh yes, how do we go about in turning it around?
That’s what I ask myself sometimes. Or I just be present. The second is easier.
But I find what works for me is A — once you acknowledge it. It usually goes away.
The stuff that bubbles up to the surface.
Or, I just cry it out and sometimes when I give myself permission to cry, my tears are like, ohhh…she’s going to let us do it anyway. Well, maybe I’ll just come back another day.
What else works for me?
Well, I repeat mantras inside my head depending on the occasion.
Like today:
No one can make you feel inferior without your consent ~ E. Roosevelt
This includes me! Yes me! Not even I can put myself down! I have no space for that shit!
So I actively bring and draw my awareness as an EQ Specialist once told me, back to my body! And then I shock the shit out of her to being present again with front yard meditations and standing in the cold naked. Minus the naked, although….
Anyway, so that’s when I put my runners on, place my hoodie over head, and keep running.
Get my happy hormones up. Smile more. Talk to strangers.
Say my I AM because even at times, even if I don’t believe it right now.
I know a part of me does. My infinity.
“I AM THE GREATEST, I SAID THAT EVEN BEFORE I KNEW I WAS,” — M. ALI
She’s always there for me. In fact, she’s my Greatest Champion! And my Dad. He taught me that early on and now I just champion people.
And no one can take my self love away from me. Not even me.
And as my friend Lorraine says, you just keep going Pam! You MOVE ON. You already did it. It’s done now. You keep creating! Keep going! It’s perfectly normal to crash and burn after. Everyone feels that.
And I asked her, but why Lorraine? Why do we do this to ourselves? It has no purpose!
And she says, I don’t know why Pam. I never analyzed it before but that’s just how it is.
It’s kind of like the time when I asked her when we were kids we talked to flowers. And when I asked my nephew and nieces now as they get older, if they talk to flowers they look at me like I have a third eye! (which I do!)
And when I asked her what happened between yesterday and tomorrow?
Why did it go from talking to flowers to saying nothing at all.
She said: Because Pam, now all of a sudden. Someone is watching them and now they (she turns her head slightly) now they care what other people think about them.
Sad. I thought. That’s just sad.
Especially for someone who is really happy most of the time. And don’t take that as I don’t allow myself to feel crappy at times because I do. I have a high turn around rate. Like the song that everybody hates. Except my mum. She likes it. I love you MUM!
So I keep keeping on in my groove.
Work on other creative projects and keep going.
Don’t let the lows get you low.
Or as they said in the Best Exotic Marigold Hotel movie: Don’t let the buggers get you down.
This is why I like hanging out with people who are calm. They help center me. And I am that calm in the epicenter of the storm. A storm that I acknowlege I created or co-created. Devious.
And in the end, we’re all going to eventually die anyway.
Yes, I’m gonna die one day! And at least I can say like the Madonna video — NO REGRETS!
Thanks guides for reminding me yet again I’m going to die. You Jackite!
Now where was I.
Oh, recharging!
Gosh, sometimes it’s like a having a conversation with one of my best friends — Farzie, where the conversation goes in like ten different directions all at once! Which you will probably witness on #IOTC.
Why, sometimes, I’ve believed as many as six impossible things before breakfast.” — Alice in Wonderland
Anyway, I wanted to research what all these amazing CEO’s do and data analyze and pattern the shit out of it like Q did once before but today I found that: my voice, my life story, my life experience is more than enuf. And I’m great with this and sharing other people’s voices.
In fact, we’re too much kid — Sex in the City — Another funny topic we talk about.
And isn’t it funny though?
Oh gawd, here we go again.
Did You Know That?
It was originally based on the lifestyle of 4 gay men, but to make it more mainstream they made it hetero and based it on the lives of 4 straight women?
So I’ve heard, but what do I know… (#authentic voice rising!)
“For Sex and the City, it seemed the formula was to write gay male and cast straight female. Its (gay) creator, Darren Star (pictured), devised one of the gayest hit series featuring straight characters in television history.” BAM!
I forget the THING that I was trying to say.
As my Dad would say, get the THING Pam. On top of the THING! Over there! The THING. The THING. We would joke around.
What thing Dad?! I replied.
The THING! He laughed.
And since we were so deeply connected, even more today. I would get him, the thing :) Love you Dad!
Right, so as my current theme this week has been:
SLOW DOWN.
Oh gosh, let me show you what I saw today at Trendybucks before writing!
I kid you not. It made me laugh out loud. Sometimes I realize, the advice I give others is what I needed to hear myself. Ouch! That hurt Ego! This is not your space here Ego. It’s time to allow heart to speak her peace and stop calling her a Jackite!
Go ahead heart.
This here is what I saw:
On a complete side note again, my little nephew went to the dollar store one day and he said out loud: OMG is this the dollar store! And he shouted it out loud and everyone in the store looked at him!
I have a boyfriend at the dollar store who is like 80 years young and keeps wanting to give me his number. I’m gay but at least he tries, it’s all a joke anyway. We brighten one another’s day and make each other happy and so I smile and we just joke around! I tell him he’s my favourite and how much I miss him. He works at the dollar store. A DOLLA!
But I digress.
This nephew was so excited! And the mom, my sister in law, was so embarrassed because it was a dollar store and colourful and funny like a Liza Koshy dollar store video!
A DOLLA! She’s bit OCD but she acknowledges that and channels it into her creative projects!
Anyway where was I…
I don’t remember…
What day is it? 🤔
Okay, well that’s my musings for today.
Hang on let me go back up and read my train of thought…
Nope. Nothing.
Not a damn thing.
Okay have a great day everybody!
Love you ALL heaps!
Keep breathing!
Smile more!
Create quite space.
And laugh so abundantly loud that you pee in your pants a little!
WEEEEEEE!!!
I can’t stop laughing at myself!
Pam Q
Just be you, everyone else is already taken.
References:
https://www.smh.com.au/entertainment/is-sex-and-the-city-gay-20040209-gdibkz.html
